| | So Tim and I went to Rutland the other day to visit with a few friends who just had a baby. Tim was a lot more thrilled then I was. I did hold the baby, and I have to say it was wonderful to hold a little baby again, and the little boy was absolutely beautiful. However, as nice as it was I realize all the work and requirements that go with having a baby and I also know how hard that would be to fit into my life especially with the goals I have in mind (nursing school, and a career that eventually leads to RN at the Rutland hospital lol) however... He was going on and on about how much he wants one now. Granted he did say "Well I can wait but I really really want one." It seems the idea of having a child may not be priority in his life, however it certainly crosses his mind very often. I guess due to my past and history and what happened to me where babies are concerned I'm a bit jaded to the whole idea, and will not get into my many fears about having children... But, let's put it this way
I've learned my lesson. As much as I do want one more child, and I hope it's a son.... I can certainly wait until I am financially ready, and naturally MARRIAGE COMES FIRST. I have already told Tim if we should end up in a position where a baby came unexpected I'd better see a ring on my finger before the child is born, and if he will not marry me even then, then obviously he doesn't love me enough and we will just have to go our separate ways. I never use to believe in marriage, but I now understand the purpose of marriage is to keep everyone honest... :D
We ate at the 99 after and we ran into Erica, a girl I know, it was her birthday (she just turned 23) so it's a small world after all. :D
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