General Info: With increased hits to my website, myspace, fotki, and deviant because of youtube and other things a lot of people have been bringing to my attention the lack of working links on my website. Let me be the first to say I know that many of the links are not working right now, they do not work - or are only loading source code - because when I transferred them from the old site at o-f.com for some reason the coding was lost in translation. I have been planning (for about three months) to sit down and go through page by page to correct the linking/loading errors, but as you see I haven't gotten that far. I have asked a few people, whom asked me first, if they wanted to take over management of the website... But finally someone is helping, thank you so much for your support John!
New Poems: Yes! I have written new poems, and I'm trying to sit down and write at least seven poems a week. I use to have goals set to write poems before and then I sort of lost ... touch, with poetry. But I feel that poetic spark coming back, like the artistic one... So I'm using it while it's there.
These Poems were Written May 11, 2008 title: EYES AT ME I must be dangerous to you A scary sight to see Visions lacking mercy Or the memorance of memory.
A burden on your past Sucking out your soul Biting down so hard You just can't keep control.
I know what you hide And all you try to deny The thing you truly are Covered by a scar.
I dig beneath your surface Scratching across your skin Finding your great mistakes As they surface from within.
Many think this is gibberish A rant lacking significance But you know who I see Reflecting in your eyes at me.
Title: WITH A KISS I kept holding on even through the pain Everyone says I'm a masochoist And for this outcome only I am to blame.
But I loved you then, and love you now And there is no fine print on this wall; So true I stand beside you through it all... I loved you And always will Who you are then Who you are still.
They'd never understand They cannot comprehend A love forever has no end. Though my strength is fleeting and my grip weak I see you slipping in my own defeat My knees begin to crumble This heart shall truly break But I cannot give up my love for you to take. Understand this is for us and for my sake.
I will always love you Have always loved you Who you were Who you are It is beyond them Why we cannot end And my love I continue to send.
My words seem as weak as my hold on you As I sit and say these things so true If only then I really decided I knew About the devil within me and you Would I still fight for this Or would I have parted with a kiss?
Title: VICES Shaking caffiene afliction Breathing smoke inhaled Addiction temporary satisfaction Needles pricking skin Diesised mortal sin Complications through action Dying lucky fraction Giving Up yourself Selling your soul Never In control.
New Pictures to Fotki Pics of Me You will find that "pictures of me" have changed. I made almost all of my pics private now, and only a select few public. I do however have a few new pics added. These pics are a concept about Romanticizing Marilyn... The beautiful actress who had the infamous wind up her skirt pic :D. You can see when you view the pics below how they can be called that. I also have a few other light and color pics that I believe came out well. My "Concepts Through People" folder is where they will be moved too, it is also a locked folder now. Join the yahoo group to get updates on the new password (this is just so I can moniter who is viewing my stuff.) click here to view my yahoo group To view the "Select Pics of Me" with new pics in it: click here To view "COncepts Through People" (password protected): click here
New "Babes Folder" EMILY PROCTOR: The beautiful babe from CSI: Miami that really knows her shiznit. Come on, you know you love her :p. Below are a select few pics of her... More in the folder listed below. To view "Emily Proctors" gallery on my Fotki: click here
New YouTube Videos My Abs: Below are two videos which focus on my abs, now that I've gotten them near where I want them to be. As a friend has said I've been "working out like a Spartan" the last few months, and I am pretty well pleased with the results. My youtube vids are just proof that I'm real, because dispite all of my "webcam/digital proof pics" people still question me. Plus, I love to dance.. I may not be the best dancer, but I find artistic joy in trying to find the movement to go with the lyrics.
Dancing to "Made of Scars: Because the idea that scars define us and give us character is one I embrace completely. :D Plus the band Stone Sour is one of my favorite bands... Corey Taylor is a god.
Dancing to "Fantasy": As requested. :D The song is by Ludacris.
Dancing to "Sexy Back": An awesome cover (better than the original) by Rivethead. ACI have other videos too, but I don't feel like posting them today. Also I decided to no longer use my DeadJournal blog as my main webpage anymore because... DeadJournal sucks and won't let me post certain codes :p. But I can live with that.
